'I'm a slut, I'm a whore, I'm filth' I thought in my mind. When I reminded myself of my sins it made the pain easier to bare. This was better than eternal torment.
"What are you doing?"
I turned around and dropped the knotted cord in my surprise as Amon stood on the doorway of my bedroom. He blushed and covered his eyes. My womanhood was exposed to him! I quickly
clothed myself.
"Amon, what are you doing here?" I ask him.
"I came to drop in because I couldn't reach you. Tohou gave me a key. She's gone?"
"Yes." I answer. "What did you need me for?"
"I need you to go on a stake-out with me tonight."
"Oh, yes, certainly." I say.
He nods and points to the cord. "Mind telling me what that was about?"
He stares intensely into my eyes, his eyes filled with almost fatherly concern. I take a step back.
"Penance." I answer. "To punish myself for my sins."
"What sins?"
I stare down at my feet, too ashamed to look at the object of my lust.
"I...I had an impure thought." I'm far too ashamed to admit that I woke up masturbating and had a sex dream about him. We were in a waterfall...a blush covers my face as I think about it.
"You're fifteen. It's just your hormones." He deadpans. "Just one?"
"N-no. Many. I...I must punish myself. It's better than eternal damnation."
"I don't know what kind of a god you pray too, but mine wouldn't send a fifteen-year old girl to hell for thinking about what fifteen year old girls think about."
"You're not Catholic, are you?" I ask, curious.
"Shintoist. Buddhist leanings." He answers.
"Then you couldn't understand." I say.
He continued staring. "It was me, wasn't it?"
I gasped. How could he know that?
"Amon, I...yes." Tears fill my eyes. Oh, God, how could he love me? Me, a lust-filled harlot?
He walks over and wipes away the tears from my face. He strokes my hair and leans in close. I shiver as he wraps his arms around me, one hand down my panties, caressing my sore backside.
I want to push him way. What I'm thinking of doing is a mortal sin that will damn my soul to eternal flames!
He smiles. "The stake-out won't take long. Want to get some dinner tonight?"
I nod. "Y-yes"
He kisses me softly and removes his hands from my panties.
"See you, tonight. And don't spank yourself too hard, you need to be in top shape to be a hunter. Promise me that?"
I nod. He walks away, my heart in his hand.