196I do not own FSOG
Note: This is set in an alternate universe. (A/U)
Chapter 1
What am I to you?
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"What kind of feelings do you have for me?" she asked, making his throat dry in an instant." Tell me the truth"
Christian did not expect this question from his employee. He and Ana had a very good professional relationship. There was no one in his whole empire who he trusted more than her. He even trusted her with the company's secrets, and the last thing he wanted was to mess up their professional relationship.
The answer to her question was: "I'm in love with you, Ana"
Simple, right? Well, no. It was not that simple.
He was indeed utterly and deeply in love with her... had been for a while now. Christian loved everything about her. To him, Ana was beautiful inside and out. Even when she had told him about her dark past, Christian loved her. However, he couldn't allow himself to ruin their relationship. She meant too much to him.
'Don't mess things up, Christian' he scolded himself.
So, even though he wanted to tell her the truth, he couldn't. He couldn't afford to lose Ana...
"Well?" he heard her say, while impatiently tapping on his large desk with her manicured nails.
He was absolutely speechless. That never happened, but this woman, whose first name he adored so much was the first to make him lose his cool.
Nothing in the world could've prepared Christian for the question that Ana had just asked.
At the moment he was panicking like crazy! In every situation, he was usually the only one who was calm. Even during the most hectic and stressful situations, he was the picture of calmness. But not today! Today, Anastasia Steele made him panic.
Before she had asked that delicate question, he had a calm look in his eyes. But after hearing the question, you could see panic in his eyes.
"Seriously, Christian?" he heard Ana say, while she narrowed her eyes." Are you not giving me an answer?!"
He wanted to reply, but he really didn't know what to say right now. She had asked for the truth, but he was pretty sure she didn't want to hear it.
She couldn't love a broken man like him?! No, he was certain that she could not.
Christian was afraid that the truth would scare her away.
He had gotten so close to her... She had opened up to him about her private life, and vice versa. So no, he couldn't tell how he truly felt. That would ruin everything!
It would break him, if she would pull away from him now.
In his opinion, there wasn't a good enough reason to be truthful. And there were a dozen reasons to lie.
So, that's why he decided to lie to Ana...
"Friendship of course" he said, while attempting to ignore how his heart pounded against his rib-cage." I've got your back and you've got mine, remember? We are friends and we also have a wonderful professional relationship."
It hurt him so badly to lie to Ana, but he felt that he had no other choice. He believed he would lose her eventually, if he told her the truth.
When Ana heard his answer, she felt her heart drop inside her chest. It felt like someone stumped on her heart, breaking it into a thousand pieces. It hurt her so much, but seconds after he said those words, Ana saw something that gave him away. She had gotten to know Christian very well these past two years, and she had discovered that he had a tell, when he lied.
'Did he just fucking lie to my face!' were the words that bounced inside her head, while gripping her phone so tightly that her knuckles turned white.
'How the fuck could he lie to me?!'
Asshole...
In just a few moments, her sadness had been replaced by anger. As she locked eyes with him, she assumed that the truth was probably too hard for him to face.
"Ana?" he said, and stood up." Are you OK?"
'Fuck you' was what she wanted to say.
But instead, Ana cleared her throat and nodded." I'm fine... good night, boss. See you tomorrow"
It became too painful for her. She grabbed her GUCCI bag, and walked out his office.
Christian stood frozen at his spot for a few minutes. Everything happened so fast, and he was just taken aback by her reaction. He didn't expect her to be angry at him! And boy, she looked fucking PISSED.
He shook his head and decided to follow her. He walked towards the window and saw that snow was falling heavily.
"Damn it, Ana!" he muttered under his breath.
The clothes that she was wearing weren't going to keep her warm.
"Taylor, get the limo ready." he told the head of his security detail, after dialing the number.
Christian was afraid that she was going to get sick, so he grabbed two coats from the rack. He had no idea where to look for her, but he had to try.
After calling her, Christian found out that she had left her phone on his desk. Guess she was so angry at him that she forgot it.
FUCK.
Well, there wasn't another way. He had to go look for Ana, and fix things between the two of them.
Ana had been walking for a while, when she began to feel the cold. It was snowing a lot and she just realized that she wasn't wearing warm enough for this kind of weather. She saw a coffee shop and decided to drink a cup of coffee to warm her body up. Ana took a seat at one of the booths, and then ordered some coffee. At one point it became too much for her heart to take, so she finally let her tears flow. Why did she have to feel more?!
He was a good boss, respectful and kind. One she didn't want to lose.
But the problem is that she felt more than friendship for him... and that made things so complicated for her.
All of a sudden she was taken out of her thoughts by a warm hand on her shoulder. Her heart jumped up, wishing that it was Christian.
But no. It wasn't him. It was Jose, her colleague.
"Hey, why are you here so late?" he asked, making Ana want to punch him in the face.
She was so disappointed that it wasn't Christian. However, she sucked it up, and gave Jose a fake smile." Well, what does it look like?"
It was then, when the waitress brought her the cup of coffee." Drinking coffee" she replied, and brought the cup towards her pale lips.
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From outside the coffee shop, Christian stood on the sidewalk and watched how Ana smiled at Jose.
"Fucking Jose Rodriguez" he said, while gritting his teeth.
God... he hated that man! However, he kept him employed, because Jose was very good at his job. That's why he tolerated the man.
Lately, Christian had noticed how the man hung around Ana, always wanting her attention.
One day he even caught him smelling Ana's hair! FUCKING ASSHOLE.
But when Ana realized what her colleague was doing, she had given him a piece of her mind!
Well, after that Jose made sure to keep a good distance between himself and Ana...
As he watched Jose flirting with her, Christian's face turned red, and then pale. He closed his eyes and told himself to calm down. This wasn't the time to lose his temper! He took a couple of deep breaths and let them out slowly. The sight of Ana talking and smiling with Jose, made him sick to his stomach!
Well, he had seen enough, he decided at one point.
"Did you find her, sir?" he heard Taylor say from behind.
Christian cleared his throat, and strode towards the limo." She's fine... she's with Rodriguez." he countered, the words spoken with so much venom that it shocked Taylor for a second.
"Where to, Mr. Grey?"
"Home..." he told Taylor, and sat silently in the back of the limo.
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Half an hour later, he was at home, and fixed himself a drink. As he thought of Ana, his phone rang aloud.
"Christian Grey, for a very bright man, you can be really stupid and clueless sometimes. Do you know that?"
It was Mia. She was shouting at her big brother through the phone.
Seriously?!
"What? Mia, have you gone crazy? What are you talking about?" he growled into the phone.
"What I'm talking about? Huh? Ana of course!" she shouted into the phone." She is totally upset right now! What did you do, Christian?"
Note: This is a three-shot.
Thank you so much for reading.
J
