I'm Tired of Waiting

Chapter 1

Shirayuki returns from Lilias after two years but she did not return to Clarines castle where she was staying to be a herbalist at the castle for the first time. She went to Wilant where Zen Wistaria become the lord of Wilant castle but she was not by herself Mitsuhide Rouen, Kiki Seiranboth are aide to the second prince of Clarines, Obiis Immediate Knight and Shirayuki bodyguard, then there was Ryu, he was there too. He is also a herbalist like Shirayuki. This story is about Shirayuki and her feeling.

It all started a couple of days ago, Shirayuki got to Wilant couples days and she wanted to explore her new place that she will be staying at for a walked down the street carring a brown bag. "Mama," A little girl said, running up to a woman with short black hair. Shirayuki stops in her track and stares at the woman walking away with the little girl.

'Will, I have a bond with my daughter someday?' Shirayuki asked herself. "I'm getting my hopes up. Zen did not ever ask me yet," Shirayuki said, letting out a sigh. Shirayuki continues walk down the street.

"Oh my god yes I will marry you," A girl with long curly blonde hair said, tears in her eyes. Shirayuki stop again and watch the girl hug the young man that is around Zen age. The couple kissed each other.

'I also want that feeling when someone ask me to marry them,' Shirayuki said, place a hand on her chest. "Maybe Zen did not want to marry me that why he did not even asked,"

Shirayuki head back to the castle because she was getting tried of watch couple showing how much they love each other. Shirayuki can't ever hold hand or kiss, and touch Zen in public. Shirayuki walked throught the gate to the castle and can't remember the last time Zen and her actually kiss seen he become the lord of Wilant. "Welcome back Shirayuki," A couple of guard said, walking passed her and bow their head.

Shirayuki open her new bedroom and walked into the room. She set the brown bag on the desk and starting pulling herb that she bought in town. "The chief want me to make a healing herb for my finally of my herbalist training," Shirayuki said, pulling out her medicine book and a notebook.

Shirayuki sat down in her chair and open her notebook. She writing the ingredients down for the healing herb. After a while, there was a knock on the door. "Come in," Shirayuki said, still looking down at her notebook and continue writing. The door open and walked into the room was Obi.

"mistress, Lunch is ready and Zen also say that he is sorry that he cant joy you again there was a matter that he have to take care off," Obi said, standing in the doorway.

"Okay, thank you," Shirayuki said, set her pen down on her desk and stand up. 'This is the fourth time that he blow me off,' Shirayuki said to herself, let out a sigh. Shirayuki walked out of the room and Obi follow after her.

'Something his bothering Mistress,' Obi said to himself, walking behide Shirayuki. Two guards open the double door to the dinning room and Shirayuki walk into the room with Obi.

Obi pull out a chair for Shirayuki. "Thank you," Shirayuki said, sat down on the chair and watch Obi sat down next to Shirayuki.

"Miss, is there something bothering you?" Obi asked, looking at Shirayuik.

"No I am fine. I'm just a little bit tired today," Shirayuki answer with a lie.

"Are you sure? you dont act like you usual self," Obi said with a concerned look on his face.

"Yes, Obi I am fine," Shirayuki said with a fake laugh. Obi knew that her laugh was fake but he just let it go.

"How was you time in the village?" Obi asked, pick up his fork.

"It was great. I have a lot of fun getting stuff for my finally test," Shirayuki said.

"oh that right your finally test is coming up soon. When is it?" Obi asked.

"Next week," Shirayuki said, pick up her fork and starting to eat her food.

"That great. Are you excited for it?" Obi asked, took a bite of his food.

"Yeah Just a little bit nervous," Shirayuki said, looking at Obi.

"Yeah eveeyone get those. So I heard Zen is plainning going on a trip Next week too," Obi said.

Shirayuki away from Obi and stare at the wall. "Yeah," Shirayuki said. 'He did not want to be here for my finally test. I know he is a prince but i feel so alone,' Shirayuki said to herself.

'Okay, I find out what was bother mistress. It master not spreading time with her. I will talk to master what going on between them.' Obi said to himself. "Mistress, Is it Zen that is bothering you?" Obi askes, watch Shirayuki flinch. 'Say I thought,'

"It did not matter he is a prince and my feeling did not matter anyway," Shirayuki said.

"Mistress you are wrong Zen did love you. He just very busy," Obi said, set his fork down on the table.

"I cant be a herbalist forever in this castle. I want to start my own family before I get to old. I'm already 21," Shirayuki said, looking back at Obi.

"Mistress, Why did you bring his up now?" Obi asked in shock.

"It when I went to the village and saw couple holding hand, kissing, and touch each but I cant do that with Zen in public. I also saw man propose to the girl and I saw a little girl run cross the street," Shirayuki answer.

"Shirayuki," Obi said still in shock.

"It did not matter anyone. I'm getting my hope up. Zen is a prince and I will alway be a commoner," Shirayuki said.

"I dont think that matter to Zen." Obi said with a smile on his face.

"Yeah, I know he told me that before but it just that it feel like he did not love me anymore," Shirayuki said, letting out a sigh.

Meanwhile with Zen...

Zen walked down the hallway into his office in thw north wing of the castle. "The lord from the north want to held a meeting with you sometime this week," Mitsuhide said, follow after Zen into the room. Zen walkes over to his desk and sat down on his chair.

"Set up a meeting This friday," Zen said, looking at Mistuhide.

"Zen about the trip next week are you sure you want to go that week?" Kiki asked, standing in front of Zen's desk.

"What do you mean by that, Kiki?" Mitsuhide asked, looking at Kiki.

"Well, I thought Zen want to see how Shirayuki do on her finally test," Kiki answer, looking at Zen.

"That was next week but she did not say anything about it," Zen said, stand up from his chair and place his hands on his desk.

"She understand that you have important meeting," Mitsuhide said, looking at Zen.

"But I dont know how long Shirayuki can handle it. You already blow her off four time seen she been back." Kiki said.

"What do you mean by that?" Zen asked, sat back down on his chair.

"Shirayuki was not born as a royal and she probably can't handle after a while," Kiki said.

"Okay, I will talk to her," Zen said, lend back in his chair. Zen then head a knock on the door. "Come in," Zen said, looking at the door. The door slowly open and walked into the room; A messenger. "What is it?" Zen asked, looking at the tall man with black hair.

"There a letter from Clarines castle," the man said, walking over to Zen's desk and hand the letter to Zen.

"Okay, thank you. You can leave now," Zen said, took the letter from The messenger and watch him leaving the room. Zen looked at the letter before he open the letter open.

Lord of Wilant Castle, Zen Wistaria,

It has been a while little brother seen you were assignment to Wilant as their lords. Haki and I decided on our date for own wedding it is two month from now. Also I want to attend the engagement ball in two week. I will see you there.

King of Clarines kingdom, Izana Wistaria

Zen set the letter down on his desk. "it looked like my brother is having a engagement party in two week and he getting married two month from now," Zen said, looking at Kiki and Mitsuhide.

"Izana and Haki are getting been engage for three years and they decided to get married," Mitsuhide said, cross his arms over his chest.

"So when are you going to asked Shirayuki to married you?" Kiki asked.

"I don't know," Zen said, turn his chair around and looked out of the window.

"You can't make her wait forever and you are the next one in line after your brother," Kiki said.

"I know, I'm just waitting for the right time," Zen said, looking down at the room.

"Okay, well i have to train the new guards today, I will be going now," Kiki said, walking over to the door.

"I feel sorry for the new guards. Dont be to hard on them," Mitsuhide said, watch Kiki walked out of the office and close the door behind her.

"Mitsuhide what is the rest of my week?" Zen asked, turn back around and looked at Mitsuhide.

"Tomorrow, you have a meeting with some commoner about some personal matters." Mitsuhide said, going on what Zen schedule for this week.

"Okay, thanks," Zen said, let out a sigh. "You can leave now that will be all for today,"

"Okay," Mitsuhide said, bow his head to Zen and walked out of the room. Zen laid back in his chair and looked up at the ceiling.

"Hello Master," Obi voice said behind Zen.

"Obi where did you go?" Zen asked, turn around and looked at Obi who was standing in the balcony.

"Well, I was with the mistress," Obi answer, walked into the office. "maybe you should go and see her," Obi said, say down on the couch.

"I been trying. I'm alway busy with work," Zen said, put his how about on his desk and use his hand as a headrest.

"She is thinking about leaving the castle after her finally test next week," Obi said.

Zen P.O.V...

"What? this is the first time I heard of this," I said, stand up from my chair.

"Yeah, she decided that it best for her to leave,"

"Why does she think that?" I asked, feeling like my heart was ripped out of my chest.

"She want a family and she think you don't love her anymore," Obi answer, looking at Zen.

"That is not ture I do love her," I said, run out of the room and down the hallway to Shirayuki's room. I knock on the door and stand there out of breath. Shirayuki open the door and saw she have a blanket wrap around her.

"Zen, what are you doing here?" Shirayuki asked, looking at me.

"Shirayuki please dont leave," I said, take a step closer to her.

"Zen I already-" Shirayuki was saying but I cut her off.

"Dont say that you already decided," I said, throw myself at Shirayuki and hold her tight. "Shirayuki, I love you that will never fade away,"

"Zen, I'm sorry," Shirayuki said, holding me tighter and crying her eyes out.

"Shirayuki, I'm the one who should be sorry," I said, push her in the room and close the door behide me.

"No Zen I was being selfish," Shirayuki said, pull away from me.

"Obi said that you want your own family," I said, looking at Shirayuki. Shirayuki eyes got wide then it back to normal.

"I do," Shirayuki said, not making eyes contact with me. I walked closer to Shirayuki and make her looked at me.

"Good because the one who is going to have a family with you is me," I said, kiss Shirayuki on the lips.

"Zen what do you mean by that?" Shirayuki asked, place her hand on my chest.

"I mean will you marry me," I answer, pull out a box from my pocket. "I big trying to find the right word to asked you," I said, open the box and reveal a diamond ring.

"Yes, Zen, I will marry you," Shirayuki said, wrap her arms around me and kiss me on the lips. I slip the ring on her finger and kiss her back. "You have a lot of work tomorrow,"

"No, I will cancel all my plain tomorrow and spread time with you," I said, place my hand on her hips.

"No cant do that for me," Shirayuki said, looking at me.

"I can do whatever I want," I said, took Shirayuki's hand and walked over to the bed. "And that mean I can stay the night with you," I said, sat down on the bed and pull Shirayuki closer to me while she still standing up.

"Zen, can't do that it is very inappropriate," Shirayuki said, face turn red.

"Dont worry we are not going to do anything. We need to get used to sharing a bed when we get married," I said, looking up at Shirayuki. I knew that Shirayuki did not like that idea but at the end she knew that it will be hard to make me change my mind. After a while, Shirayuki climb into bed next to me.

"I dont like this idea," Shirayuki said, laid her head on the pillow.

"I know," I said, wrap my arms around Shirayuki and pull her closer.

"Zen,"

"Get used to it," I said, buried my face in her res hair. Shirayuki laid her head on my chest and one of her head was laying on top of my chest.

The next day...

"Oh my god, Prince where are you?" Mitsuhide yelled after he saw that Zen was not in his room. He run down the hallway looking at each room that he come across to see if Zen was in there.

"Mitauhide why are you yelling?" Kiki asked, looking at Mitsuhide.

"Zen is not in his room when I went to get him to get him this morning." Mitsuhide answer in a panic.

"Did you check the office?" Kiki asked.

"Yes, I went there first and he was not their yet so i went to his room," Mitsuhide answer, looking back at Kiki.

"did you went to go and check if he's with Shirayuki?" Obi asked, walking down the hallway.

"Why do you think he would you think that he with Shirayuki?" Mitsuhide answer with a question looking at Obi.

"Well, last night he went to see her," Obi answer, looking at Mitsuhide.

See you in the next chapter of I'm Tired of Waiting...