Cynthia's POV

Sometimes I wonder what would have happened if I didn't leave Kinsaha. I mean yeah, I had a pretty good reason for leaving as my region needed me back as their champion but me and Alessia both know that was the real reason as to why I left her just the excuse I used to abandon our relationship before things became more between us. I wasn't ready to admit how I truly felt about her and have the whole world cast their opinion about how two champions are together. The media would have a field day with the two of us and I didn't want to have to deal with that. Still don't. Especially since it would be more about me coming out then it would be about her who is been out for a long time. The minute one reported about how close we were hinting at a potential romance I fled back to the safety of my home away from the rumours. Since there we've barely been in contact killing all the rumours about us. It wasn't the right way to handle the situation I know that and I know I hurt Alessia. But she was always better than me at dealing with emotions. When she first reached out for help a little part of me wanted to turn her down to avoid everything between us. But I know that I would never turn her away. I care about her too much to cut off all contact and neglect to help her in a dire situation like this.

However, now I have to deal with her again. We've only been reunited for a few hours and have seemed to have fallen back to the way we were before I left and that terrifies me more than the attack today. I know she and her Pokémon have a bond unlike anything I have ever seen or heard and today must have been one of the worst days in her life but still, she reached to me for comfort and acted like I haven't totally neglected her or her feelings. Now I'm sat here waiting for the other shoe to drop and to have her talk about what I did to destroy us and the waiting for her to bring up the subject is killing me.

Once everyone went to bed leaving me and Alessia alone. Well, not alone her Pokémon are still sitting here but you know what I mean. "So" I start but wince as it sounds more like a croak then an actual word. "So how have you been." she raises an eyebrow at the question but doesn't move to respond in any way. Just silently staring at me. Judging me. Looking for something in me. I don't know. Shifting slightly, I try to act cool like she isn't making me more and more nervous every second, we sit here in silence.

Whether she found what she was looking for or just gave in she did answer the question and the shoe I was waiting for dropped. "Not bad. Been training at the mount keeping my siblings from stealing my spot at the top and working on our music." Her monotone voice hurts me more then it should. I remember when she spoke to me with love and happiness in her voice. How excited she was in her Pokémon and comparing training methods between two champions. Now to hear her with no emotion talking to me stings. What's worse is I know I am the sole reason for the way she is talking now. I knew me leaving hurt her just as much as it hurt me. If not more. We built up a relationship and then I destroyed and now I have to reap for consequences of my actions.

Not sure where to take the conversation from here I stop talking and turn away from her. "I'm sorry," I whisper into the silence of the room. Hell, I don't even know what I'm apologising for. If she heard what I said then she doesn't react in any way shape or form. Which in itself is far more unsettling than the monotone tone. The person sitting next to me is a very different person from the one who was laughing with her sister earlier battling in front of her fans. How does she move from one person to another in such little time.

Feeling the room reach the peak of emotion's that I can't handle I quickly stand up and head back to my room. But I stop at the doorway as I suddenly realise that the room I stayed in last night was Alessia's room. And since she's here where do I sleep. "You can have my room." Sometimes I swear she can read minds. Or at the very least mine. Turning back around I'm greeted by the sight of her back unmoving from her position from before I moved to leave. "I'm going to stay here and keep an eye on Leafeon." I nod but remembering she can't seem me.

"Thank you." I manage to say. Once again, I turn to leave.

But once again I pause as she continues speaking. "I never blamed you. For leaving that is. It wasn't your fault. You won't ready and I pushed you to be. I know you blame yourself for the breakdown of our relationship but don't. We... we were just at different points in our life I guess. There was nothing we could have done without changing who we are. So don't blame yourself. You have nothing to feel guilty about. I'm sorry you felt as if you had to apologise for something you couldn't control." turning around she sends me a small smile to match her gentle sad tone. "Night Cin."

"Sia." I respond using her nickname as she used mine. I can't help but smile at her knowing that she was comfortable enough to use my nickname but also because she doesn't seem angry at me like I thought she was. It has taken a weight of my shoulders but it doesn't change the fact that we have drifted so far apart now that talking to her was difficult. I guess all we can do now is see what the future has in store for us.