98Loving You Forever is What I Need Chapter Nineteen
"I may not be the kind of person you want me to, but I will always be there for you."― Alfusainey Jallow
Emily finally stepped out of the cab, after sitting there for several minutes, actually after making the driver turn around the block twice and then sitting there for about fifteen minutes. She almost made the poor guy take her back to the hotel but she had to go in, after all that was why she had come all the way there. She sighed fixing her hair and she started walking towards the apartment complex, a big part of herself was not sure if she was doing the right thing. But she was already there, and after all, she knew he would have done the same thing for her. After several seconds of pacing around the lobby, she got into the elevator, pushing the right floor button, and taking a deep breath. Why in the hell was she so nervous about this? Is was not like she was scared of him, after all, they had been together just a few months ago. She got off the elevator and walked over his apartment. You can do this Emily... she whispered to herself gaining enough courage and knocking on the door.
"Emily..." said a very shocked, disheveled, and drunk Hotch, his mouth open, he could not believe that she was standing there.
"What are you doing here...?" his tie and suit jacket was gone, his white crisp shirt was folded over his arms, and his hair was messy, he wasn't wearing any socks and Emily could smell the alcohol from where she was standing.
" I had a few things to do in D.C," She said biting her lip "I just wanted to stop by and see if you needed anything..."
"Dave called you, " He said knowingly moving out of the way to let her in.
"No, JJ did" Emily replied glancing around, she had never seen the stoic Aaron Hotchner so unkempt, she could also tell he had been drinking more than just a few drinks, given the bottles of liquor around the kitchen counter. They were several of them.
"They should have never bothered you... I am sorry that they did I know you are busy..."
"They did not bother me, they are just worried about you," she said looking at him worriedly "With all reason..." his place looked like a tornado had passed by.
"They don't need to worry about me, I am fine..." he said stumbling around a little bit
"When was the last time you ate anything Hotch?" Emily asked placing her purse on the couch looking at him very concerned this was not like him at all.
"Sometime this morning... or yesterday, I can't be sure," He said dismissively walking back towards the counter
"Do you want anything to drink?"
"No, I think I am good..."
"More for me then" he murmured pouring himself another glass of scotch and drinking almost all of it
"Woah why don't you slow down for a second there Aaron..." she said taking the glass and the bottle from his hands
"That's my drink..." he said drunkenly
"I think you had enough for today..." Emily said bitterly walking over to the kitchen and dumping the rest of his glass on the sink, along with the bottle.
"Hey, don't do that...that's mine" he walked drunkenly towards her, stumbling as he reached to take the bottle from her hand.
"Just give it back Emily..."
"No Hotch you are done drinking for tonight..." she said moving away from him unable to believe what she was seeing.
"You are mean," he said looking at her like a kid about to throw a tantrum
"What the hell are you doing Aaron?" she asked unable to control herself
"Nothin', I am just having a drink..."
"You are completely wasted Hotch..."
"I am fine, I am not even that drunk..." he waved dismissively walking away
"Tomorrow I will get up and go to work and save people, you know? Because that's what I do, I help people even when they do not want to be helped" he said dropping into his couch with a loud thud "That's my big problem"
"What are you talking about?"
"I am talking about the fact that I am an idiot," he said slurring his word "I am this big imposing, judgemental know-it-all who blows around yelling and complaining and screwing up everybody else's life..."
"Aaron .."
"I am dumb, I am just this big idiot...not like Sean, Sean is smart and good looking, everyone loves Sean, but me, I am just this giant unwelcome burden to everyone around me..."
"Hey, that's no true..." she said coming over and sitting down next to him
"Yes, it is...that's why Beth left to be with Sean, that's why she took my son, the kid I raised for the past two years but it doesn't matter you know. Because I am just this miserable person nobody wants to be around..."
"Is that what Beth told you?" she asked angrily ready to kill Beth, she had caused so much pain to Hotch already
"No, that's what Sean told me...but that is why Beth slept with him, that's why she had a kid with him and made me believe it was mine"
"Don't do that, you can't possibly blame yourself for what they did..."
"But if I had..."
"No, Aaron," she said firmly "Don't do this to yourself, Sean is a selfish, angry person who doesn't care about anyone else but himself," Emily said looking at him kindly
"You did everything you could to make sure your brother was okay, and he still went ahead and screwed his life up"
"And Beth..." Emily continued taking a second to control herself "Well Beth is just as evil and self-centered... and there is no name for what she did to you..." she reached to take his hand
"I am sorry you had to go through all of this Hotch..."
"I raised Jayde for two years, two damn years Emily, I did everything for Jack and him"
"I know that..."
"I ended my relationship with you," he said a tear finally rolling out of his eyes
"I loved you more than anything in the world and I had to let you go to be a father for a child that was not even mine..."
"I can't even imagine how you feel right now..." she said fighting the urge to pull him into her arms.
She hated Beth more than anything else in the world, she could not believe she had lied to Hotch about his son just to keep him trapped with her, it was her fault after all, why they were not together.
"But what I do know, is that you cannot let this destroy your life, Aaron, you still have Jack and a whole life ahead of yourself..."
He didn't say anything, he just looked lost and empty, Emily could not remember ever seen him so broken and vulnerable. "Everything is gonna be alright Aaron I promise you that"
"Where is Jack by the way...?" she asked changing the conversation
"Jessica's, he and his friends are having a sleepover ..."
"I was hoping I could see him..." she said with a small smile, she had always loved Jack so much.
"I can call for him if you want?" he said a smile making its way out of his face, Emily had been a motherly figure for his son after all
"Not right now Aaron, I won't allow Jack to see you like this," she said wiping the tear that had rolled out his eyes and looking at him concerned.
"I don't want Jack to see me like this either," he said as a scowl formed on his face
"Please don't let him see me like this! Please Emily.." he started freaking out
"Ok, okay calm down, Jack is not gonna see you... I promise you"
"I am sorry you had to see me like this too," he said feeling ashamed
"Is okay, I have seen you drunk plenty of times before..." she said with a smirk.
"Not like this you haven't..." he said sadly, that was true, he had never been that kind of man.
"No, you are usually more romantic" she joked hoping she could make him feel a little better.
"I am a Randy dunk aren't I?" he said, a sloppy smile on his face
"Yes, you definite are," Emily said laughing.
Hotch had never good at showing his emotions around others, not even around her. But it only took a couple of drinks and he was all over her declaring his love and lavishing her with words and romance.
"So what now?"
"Now you go take a shower and sober up... this is not the end of the world Aaron, there might things that tear us apart inside but we keep going on"
"So you came all the way to D.C just to make me shower...?" his mind was beginning to clear
"No" she could not help to laugh "I have a few important meetings for Interpol, Clyde is here too"
"Clyde huh? Are you into English man now?" He asked winking at her
"Go shower Hotchner," she said rolling her eyes and slapping his chest playfully
"Okay, I am going..." Hotch replied standing up from the couch
"Are you gonna be here when I get out?"
"Ok course I will, I am gonna order some food and then we can talk more..."
"Emily..."
"Yeah?"
"Thanks for being here..."
"Always...now go... I am making you some coffee as well"
"I don't need coffee," he said as he went into the bathroom
"Oh yeah you do," Emily said to herself "You need an exorcism right now"
A few hours later Emily and Hotch were sitting on his couch talking and laughing, with an almost empty box of pizza in front of them. She had cleaned the apartment while he was in the shower, and now they were just relaxing and talking, Hotch was completely sobber now and he was not ready for his time with Emily to be over.
"Wait so you actually said that to him?" he asked laughing
"I mean yeah, we have known each other since I was like sixteen, he is pretty much family, It is not like I go around telling all my supervisors to fuck off," she said pulling a long strand of hair behind her ear.
"Well..." he stopped unsure if he wanted to finish the sentence. Emily had told him to fuck off, on more than one occasion, while he was her supervisor.
"That's different," she argued rolling her eyes
"No, I think you are just feisty and stubborn in general..."
"No I am not," she said defensively, he just laughed at her
"Yeah you are"
"Well is not like you are Mister all smiles... Aaron Hotchner, in case you have not noticed you can be just as feisty and intimidating"
"Yeah but I don't recall using cussing words at my subordinates"
"Oh I can name a few times, in fact, many times..." she said biting her lip and smirking. He instantly blushed
"Other than sex Em" he laughed poking her, Emily just laughed rolling her eyes
"So I take the whole team knows you are here?"
"Actually no, only JJ knows, but I am sure by tomorrow morning the entire city will know"
"Garcia" he whispered knowingly "She is something else for sure.."
"Yeah, she is," Emily said looking at her watch
"Hey I should get going, It is almost midnight, I have a meeting in the morning."
"Are you staying JJ?"
"No, I am staying at the Renaissance"
"Let me take you back to the hotel, then," He said assuming she had taken a cab.
"Is okay, I can just take a cab back, It is only ten minutes away.."
"Emily is midnight, I am not letting you go back alone..."
"Aaron..."
"You just gave me a big lesson about friends and being there for each other... but you are not willing to let this work the same way?" he asked
"Okay fine" she agreed with a heavy sight
Hotch walked Emily up to her room at the Renaissance hotel, feeling a bit nostalgic, a huge part of him wishing she could have stayed with him. There was a point in their relationship when they were so close, just friends close, that she would spend the night with him, in his bed, nothing sexual, just talking for hours until the sun rose. Those were his favorites times, where he could just have her there close and knowing that a huge part of his heart belonged to him, even as a couple, he loved holding Emily in his arms and just keeping here there sound and safe. Emily had always been and will probably always be the woman he loved the most, he knew he would never be able to love anyone the way he loved her. Despite their differences and everything that had happened between he was glad that he could still be friends with her and that they care about each other, he knew they probably always will.
"Welp this is my room," Emily said smiling and using the key card to open the door.
"Thanks so much for walking me all the way here Hotch"
"Of course, is the least I could do"
"Have a good night Aaron. Will, you call me if you need anything?"
"Of course, have a good night," Hotch said walking away but before she could go inside the room he turned around again.
"Emily..."
"Yeah?"
"Why are you really here for?" he just needed to know
"I told you," she said hesitantly
"I have some business meetings for Interpol" he just gave her the look, the one that said I don't believe you, she knew exactly what that meant. He wanted to know what had prompted her to take a plane to D.C and go see him, and take care of him like it was the most normal thing in the world.
"I don't know..." she said honestly biting her lip and looking away from him unable to meet his questioning eyes
"When JJ called me and told me you were hurting, I just...I wanted to see you..." she said not fully looking at him, her eyes glossy and sad.
He closed the distance between them in two strides pulling her into his arms and kissing her passionately, that was all he needed to know, that she still cared about him.
Emily should have pushed him away but she did not, this was exactly why she did not want to come to see him in the first place because deep inside her she knew they would end up doing exactly what they were doing.
But right now her rational thoughts did not seem to matter, as she started reciprocating the kiss, pulling him inside her room. Emily just pulled Hotch to her, she lost sense of everything, the only thing that mattered to her right now was this moment they were melting in a kiss, moaning into each other's mouths. He closed the door with his foot, as he continued to assault her mouth.
He slowly led her closer to the bed, and they just surrendered to their passion. Emily had almost unbuttoned all his shirt, and she ran her hands over his chest, making Hotch shiver at the contact of her soft hands; she let his shirt fall to the floor, and then she ran her hands all over his torso, not missing a single spot on his sexy figure, his hands were on her sides grasping her and pulling her closer to him, he slowly started unbuttoning her shirt as he kissed her naked torso, placing soft kisses across her torso and leaving a few not so gentle bites. They fall against the bed, undressing each other, not caring about the situation or the what-ifs, that was the thing with, the chemistry between them had always been so strong, they fire always burned even without any fuel.
Aaron pulled away for a second admiring her glorious figure. She was wearing a black lace bra and panty set which made her alabaster skin stand out. His breath hitched, and his heart started beating faster than ever.
"God Lord, you are absolutely magnificent!" He said in awe, almost in a whisper.
She could feel herself blushing deeply. He then leaned down and grabbed her foot, kissing it gently and cautiously removing her high heels; he did the same thing with the other foot, all the while his eyes never left her face. He started at her lips, slowly, and then passionately, Emily was moaning now, he moved to her neck gently biting her earlobe tenderly. He moved down her neck placing soft kisses and gentle bites everywhere, making her whimper from his touch.
Emily undid his pants and freed his belt while he was kissing her, then she slid his jeans down his ankles and removed them completely. Her hands were on his back and his shoulder blades now…God, she was so wet already, and it was unbelievable. He lingered across her chest, and then through the valley of her breasts…she had the most amazing breasts he had ever seen, he placed soft kisses on them through the lace fabric. He kept kissing his way down her smooth stomach, his gentle bites sending shivers throughout her body. He kissed her from her navel down to her pelvis, where Emily started to buck involuntarily, her breath hitching and her heart beating so fast she felt it was going to explode.
She closed her eyes and ran her hands through his thick hair. Hotch moved to her slim legs, then her knees and her calves, and he kissed all the way to her foot doing the same with both legs taking all his time. Emily couldn't control herself anymore he was killing her.
"Oh God, Aaron, please." He smiled knowing how crazy it drove her to lose control, he came back kissing the same way, and he stopped to meet her eyes again. He placed his finger on her lips shushing her tenderly.
"Relax Emily... just let me love you..." he said in a husky whisper, taking her nipple into his mouth.
"Oh, God…" She moaned softly, with her eyes closed while he did indescribable things to her breast. His hand slowly slid down her legs…he could feel how wet and hot she was, and he couldn't stop himself from sliding one finger inside her wet core. Emily arched her back screaming at the feel of his finger. He smiled, watching her melt under his touch, while he played with her for a bit with his finger. He then stopped his movements, pulling his finger out and licking it hungrily. When he returned to her mouth, Emily could taste her juices on his mouth, and somehow, that made her even hotter, so, she slid her hand inside his boxers and cupped his erection. Then he leaned down to her stomach and grabbed her panties with his teeth and, keeping his eyes on her all the time, sliding her panties down her long legs, he started kissing from her ankle up to her thighs, biting the skin softly and leaving tiny red marks where her his mouth had been. When he finally reached her hot center, he could smell her desire, and that just turned him even more.
He reached between her folds with his tongue making her whimper, and making her breath erratic. He licked her slit from back to front completely watching her closed eyes and watching the pleasure he was giving her. He slid his finger inside her again, and then a second one, curving his fingers to reach her g-spot, and when he began increasing the speed of his movements, Emily could feel her walls contracting and she knew her orgasm was close.
"Aaron, I am going cum….please." She begged, however, he didn't stop, and a few seconds later she came, arching her back. Aaron finished drinking her sweet juices and returned to her mouth kissing her passionately. Tasting herself on his mouth was one of the most amazing and turned on experiences she had ever imagined.
Aaron lined himself at her entrance and slowly, very slowly, he slid himself into her entrance while keeping eye contact with her all the time. When he started to move again, she opened her eyes to look at him, they didn't need any words they were so into each other that it was overwhelming. Emily flipped them on the bed, staying on the top and taking control of things; she sat down on his erection, riding him slowly and keeping eye contact with him all the time. He had better access to her breast now, so he captured her nipples in his mouth while she rode him slowly.
Soon, she speed up her movements, they were both moaning frantically, and Aaron could feel the warm feeling in his stomach growing but this was different, no woman had ever made him feel what Emily Prentiss made him feel at this moment, the closeness, the shivers, and the pleasure she was making him experience was something he could never have with anyone else
"Oh God, baby…..you feel so damn good." He said, his hands on her ass and hips helping her ride him.
When Emily leaned down to kiss him, her breast pressed against his chest, and his hands immediately went to her back, he tightened his arms around her back and one more time he flipped them on the bed, now in control of her, he could take her to heaven one more time before he, too, reached that point. She wrapped her arms around his waist as his movement inside her became faster and stronger, making her moan and scream his name…Emily was very vocal in bed, and that turned him on so much, it always had.
Slowly, he reached between their joined bodies, rubbing his finger on her clit timing his movements inside her with his movement of her clit. One more time, Emily felt her wall contract, and before she could say anything or do anything, she came again screaming his name. His pace became even more intense and just a few seconds later, he too exploded inside her, whispering her name against her naked chest.
After they both came down from their high pulled out of her falling back into the mattress and pulling her into his arms, she gently reached for the sheet covering both of their bodies, and just enjoying the absolute bliss she felt when she was with him.
"How many days do I have you for?" he asked with a goofy grin
"Two, maybe three," she said "But you do realize that I actually have to work, I was not lying when I said I have a few Interpol meetings"
"I know"
"And Garcia will kill me if I don't have breakfast or lunch with them"
"Okay fine but the rest of the time you are mine..."
"Oh really?" she asked amused
"Really!..." he said looking at her with lusk, "Of course we can always resort to handcuffs..." he winked
"Aaron!" she laughed as he kissed her passionately and nothing else mattered after that.
"If this were a different time, a different place, I would take you to bed with me and make love to you for days."― Anne Stuart
