Ever since the destructive force of nature was obliterated from my mind, I've been losing sense of time. The pain and torment I experienced in the other world will always be in my head where ever I go, I may seem happy but there is a sadness that lies deep inside me which will never ever leave. I have isolated myself from opening up to people after my ordeal. I always thought happiness could have been found in the darkest of times if I only remembered to the on the light. Oh boy! how wrong I was, I have finally discovered that the universe doesn't care if I live or I die so why should I care about the universe. I have also discovered that forgiveness will only bring more hurt and sorrow.

I always believed I stopped her…..

Do you know that saying some doors should never be opened?

I always thought I would be able to move on and forget her, and that she would move on and forget me but for some unknown reason destiny seems to bring us together again and no matter how hard I try she will always be apart of me, but sometimes it's those memories that you need to resurrect in order for you to conquer and stop a unstoppable force even more powerful and sadistic as the last one. "Help of her" is the one sentence which I would never have expected to come out of my mouth.

But I did require her help because in order for me to stop the unthinkable I would have to relive my worst nightmares and take another journey to hell. I had a twisted feeling she was alive and as much as I refused to accept it I knew it wasn't over.

It would never be over!