3DARK ANGEL
DISCLAIMER: I do not own SA…
Chapter 1. How I lost her?
I was walking in a vast meadow when a beautiful voice reached my ears. I looked around, wanting to know the source of the voice.
In my search, I saw her… the source of the voice… my angel… Her smile captivates and warms my heart. Her beautiful brown hair flowed with the wind, revealing her a goddess-like face that looks so serene as she sings.
Noticing my presence, she turned to me and said, "Yahiro, sayonara."
My eyes jerked open as I realized that I had been dreaming. I pinched my temples, mentally chastising myself to stop dreaming about her… she's no longer here… and won't be coming back anymore. With this thought, a painful memory, that I had been buried deep in my mind (and heart), resurfaced.
Everything that happened on that fateful day, six years ago, is still etched painfully in my mind.
It was Saturday, a week after the SA's graduation from Hakusen Academy. She and I met went out together. For two people, with the other confessing her love and rejected spot on, we are doing fine and getting along well… a little too well. We went to the park, sat on "our bench", ate junk foods and many other things, with me occasionally teasing her, and she, pouting (and blushing) every time I tease her. It is one of the happiest moments in my life (not that I will admit it aloud).
"Where are we going next?" I asked her. I waited for her response. When I did not get immediately a response, I turned to her, slightly annoyed that it is taking her such a long time to answer.
"Hey, weird girl!" It took several repetitions of these before she snapped out of her thoughts and finally notice that I am saying something to her.
"Huh?" she wrote in her eraser board.
"Forget it!" I told her louder than expected, surprised that it annoyed me that she was not paying attention to me.
Silence came the minutes that followed.
"You know what? ..." she said to me, then she began writing in her board.
/I got accepted to a prestigious music school in US. /
"Huh? Good for you." I tried to say nonchalantly, hiding the excitement in my heart with that little piece of good news delivered by the weird, brown-haired girl beside me.
/It is. But I am still thinking about it. /
Curious about her seemingly uneager response, I told her, "Why not? You should grab the chance."
"If I am to go there, I will have to leave the others…. And I worry about you." She explained in a melancholic tone.
With that, I am crashed with a mixture of different emotions that I cannot even distinguish what are they. I, Yahiro Saiga, heir of Saiga Financial Group, need this girl? Why does these mere words uttered by her have such intense effect on me?! I found myself in a state of emotional disarray.
"Do not be preposterous! You want to go there? Just go! I can survive my life without you!" I shouted harshly to her.
She was shocked at my words but I continued.
"What are you waiting for? Just go! I will not feel a thing even if you are gone. You are nothing me and you will remain that way! You hear me?! You are not…." I was not able to continue my words since at that time, her hands, usually so caring, hit me. Then she ran away with tears brimming from her innocently gorgeous eyes. What have I done? By the time that I have gotten over the shock of everything that happened, she was no longer in sight.
Few weeks passed since that day. We have not seen, called, or even texted each other. All means of communications between us disappeared. It was Friday night when I learned from Sakura that the brown-haired girl is leaving Japan, and her flight will be the next day at 8 o'clock in the morning.
"Good for her. She can now achieve her dreams." I keep on telling myself.
"It is not that I like her anyway. When she leaves, I will just go on with my life like I have not met her." I rationalized. I rationalized again and again while I lay in my bed that night until I fell asleep, thinking of the brown-haired girl that will soon (too soon) live my life.
I woke up 5:00 am that Saturday. I left the house at 7:00 to explore, thinking that I had been too cooped up in the house and the office for too long. I do not have a particular destination in mind so I was surprised when I found myself in the park where we went on our first "date".
Automatically, I looked for the chair (our chair) where we sat… when I listened to that heart-warming music that you sang with your angelic voice. Then, it all came flowing and crashing to my mind. Her innocent and beautiful face, her intoxicating sent, her cute pouting face, the way she smiles that reaches her eyes, and … her love which pierces through my cold heart. With these, I realized that for a long time, I had already been in love with you.
I gasped imagining the pain of not being with her, of losing her, and of the huge void that she will forever remain behind. I just cannot take it. I can just die from imagining it. In my mind, I know that it would be better for her to go and chase her dreams than to be beside a broken, bitter person such as myself. But, I can't just loose her… I need her. I threw away the cool, unfeeling façade that I had been coating myself in. I don't care what other's think about me. I just want to reach her… tell her that she will NEVER be nothing to me, because she is my EVERYTHING. I allowed my instincts to take over and began running towards her… my angel.
Only a few minutes left before her departure. I ran as fast as I can to the airport just to reach her, passing through the traffic and honking cars, and enduring my breathlessness and fatigue. When I finally reached the waiting area, thinking that I will finally reach her, I saw Ryuu. For some reason, he was just alone.
"Megumi? Where is Megumi?" I managed to ask as I shake him in desperation.
"She just left. She's no longer here. You are late." He said and walked away.
With those words, my mind went blank. My world stopped turning. I am now living the pain, the lost, and the void that she left behind. Better be used to it, she will no longer come back…
"Megumi Yamamoto… sayonara, my angel."
